LOVE..continued

Ahan..so i finally finished my novel today..ya rite..the"2 states" that i was talking about in my first blog..you people might be wondering why did i take so much time to complete it..well...it was not boring..the hectic MBA schedule didn't allow me to do so..haha..

I am happy to complete it now..the story was full of emotions..i even had a tough time holding my tears..it exposed me to the feeling of love that we kinda ignore when we grow-up..

ya..i am talking about the love that our parents have for us.."THE LOVE WITHOUT EXPECTATIONS"...the love that we don't even realize..we become so self-centred with the time we grow..we forget the hands that taught us to walk..we forget the motivation behind that make us to walk through the life..ya we forget about the pain that our mommy and daddy goes through while bringing us up without expecting anything from us...ya they do get conservative about us falling in love with someone else in the world..but they are the one who will always stand behind us even when the whole world would be against us..that is called love without expectations that holds true even in this fast moving world..we move much forward leaving behind the memories,the love and care that our parents have for us and giving the love to someone else in the world..the 'someone special'..is this anyway wrong?..love is meant to be given rather to keep in your heart but we should have a balance for it..we must not forget that we are not meant to make the one smile but also to the people who made you smile throughout your life..who has succumbed to your silliest wishes..

ok..i got little carried away..i must tell what happened in the story(though many of you must have known about it)...ya it was his dad who made the marriage possible...the same dad he hated for the whole life...

oh ya my opinion didn't change much but i can see the love from a different persepctive now...love can be without expectation too..its all around you..you just need to feel it and give back..

miss u daddy..miss u mommy..

Anger!!

Do u ever realize y r u angry...ya sumtime u don't even knw tat u r angry nd above all u don't knw d reason behind it...ya it happens...most of u wud hv faced dis situation one or the other time...infact many times...it keeps on happening with me...i always wonder y m i so agitated..nd thr r no answers to it..

but sumtime i do feel the main reason is the conflicts among our priorities..wen u don't understand y sumthng is happening in ur lyf..wen u want sumthng nd u don't get it at tat instance nd infact u don't get it ever which makes u furious..u urself get so confused about the priorities of ur lyf..u urslef don't knw hw to gv preference to certain things over other issues and this conflict inside u makes u angry..d main problem is expectations..if u give sum1 an imp place in ur lyf u expect d same frm the person for the same position for the same priority in his/her lyf..nd if u feel tat u don't hold the same position in his/her lyf..it makes u thnk abt the priorities tat u hv set in ur lyf..tat makes u more agitated..more confused..nd u just loose control over ur thoughts nd u just don't undrstnd y r u nt in greatest of ur moods...infact u feel low nd den u suddenly feel tat u r nt special...d lyf gets lost for sumtime...

well..u must want 2 knw wat do i to 2 mk ths situations bck 2 control..even m trying to learn tat..hv tried sumthngs though it don't work much..u shud talk 2 sumone who really cares abt u..abt ur existence...

well i want 2 knw wat else we cn do to control this situation wen we get angry over ourselves..

i hope i"ll find the answers soon..

My First Blog

Luv..

well just wondering y m i writing about luv...effects of '2 states' or m i really feeling it...

Is it about missing someone...is it about caring for someone ..

is it about giving the first priority to someone in your lyf ..

or is it about making someone your lyf...

wat is luv?

i keep wondering is this truly luv tat we feel for someone special in our lyf...the feeling is so pure...if this is luv then y do we fall for more than one ppl..y do we move frwd in lyf nd fall for ppl who care for us leaving the ppl nd their memories for whom we cared...y is everyone more interested in getting luv rather than giving it without any expectations..

the classical theories of luv talks about sacrifices and 100% dedication...but is it applicable in this modern fast moving world..no it is not..everyone needs a companionship...

look around u..u"ll find ppl who says they r madly in luv...but do they even mean it...infact even they don't knw abt it..but dis is wat we call crazy..we luv sumone nd we don't know y?

there is no ans to it...y do we luv only tat particular person..y do we expect from the 'same' person...frankly i feel there is no ans to anything in this world that concerns you..u"ll hv solution to evry problem to ur frnd but wen it cums to u,u simply bcum blank abt it...something keeps happening in ur lyf..do u think u r controlling it...do u think u hv decided whom to luv nd whom not...y do we look those specific qualities in the special person though many must be possesing...

i"ll call it DESTINY...just look at me...i was talking about luv and now from where the word destiny has intervened in between...well ya its all about destiny...lucky are those ppl who r luved nd who luv the 'same' person...

we keep moving forward in lyf thinking tat we"ll remember only the gud memories..lyf seems beautiful at times but is it really beautiful...

i knw i hv deviated from the topic...luv and lyf goes hand in hand...luv is lyf...it makes u smile...it fills u with tears...it cn do anythng and everythng...luv is beautiful nd it really is if u find someone who luvs u more than anything(yes m talking abt priorities..)..luv make ur lyf worth living for...10 yrs down the line...

will the grades scored by u would matter...will the boring lectures would matter...or will the 'khadus' boss at ur workplace matter...

no they will not...wat will matter is the luv around u...sumone arnd u who makes u feel spcl...sumone whu cn die for mkng u smile..

yes sumone whu luvs u truly madly nd deeply nd whu makes the world around u beautiful and cozy..

well just wantd to say tat i hvn't read the whole novel yet..so will continue further once i complete it..i blv my opinion wud not chng...